Pathetic Phallus

I remembered a line - “filled with
a bitter nail bitten energy” 
                           I called the 
archivist for my grandmother. She 
is unnerved by Ashberry’s line-
breaks. The alimentary canal is
another country. Skin is just skin
delicate, vain. A list: the name of 
each woman i have admired, or 
loved, or laid in my life. I’ve lost
sight of what it meant to achieve.
Just as I am 
            losing sight of what is 
A full stomach, and what is a barrel 
Of crude oil. You sink into wet turf, 
you cower under clouds, a pan of 
boiling sugar. Pathetic phallus. 
I promised I’d write about 
EMOTIONS. 
       But words are dangerous, and I’ve also made promises to look after myself.